I always find myself searching for those people where I can be extremely comfortable with.
Like all the time.
I open up to people who are willing to let me be in there life.
It's nice.
It's that warm feeling you get in the heart that says " He/She'll stay , go on"
I like that.
I really do.
But it doesn't happen so naturally,
I've never rejected anyone.
Most of the time, people reject more often.
Like their always busy, always.
I'm like the one and only person that is forever free, forever.
I need companionship, heavily.
 Yet, I dun show them out, at all.
I turn all my feelings, all of them, into smiles.
Rarely, very rare, people see me upset and stuff.
I will just smile it off, laugh it off.
I dun understand why, but I guess, I'm just afraid.
Yea, that's the highest possibility there is.
I guess friends influence me the most.
Or should I say, the people that I hang out with ?
Will be going to Taiwan with poly people.
I wonder how many of them are as good as I perceived them to be ?
' Steady ' is a word that most people lack.
It's so hard to find in people my age.
All of them are scared of this, scared of that.
You're only young once, just do it man.
There is so much things to say, so much things to do.
There is just no time for them.
I've been sleeping like 4-7 hours on weekdays all the time.
Guess I just have to cut down on gaming and surfing net randomly.

Even the ugly people got a girl yet I'm still single.